You called yesterday
To basicallly say
That you care for me
But that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended
To be feeling similarly
And led you to believe it was okay
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me
Well, I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality, I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath a disguise of a smile
Gradually, I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry
So what do you do
When somebody you're so devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you
And it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride
And sing "I Will Survive"
Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way"?
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away
Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality, I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the disguise of a smile
Gradually, I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry
It'll break ya down
Only if you let it
Everday, crazy situation's rockin' my mind
Tryin' to break me down
But I won't let it (forget it)
I been feelin' like you breakin' me down
Kickin' me round, stressin' me out
I think I better go and get out
And let me relieve some stress
Don't ever wanna feel no pain, pain
Hopin' for the sun but it looks like rain, rain, rain
Lord, I just will not maintain
Oh yeah, often feel the pressures y'all
But never the less crazy won't fall
It's over, it's endin' here
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