i miss mummy..

到後來才發現愛你是一種習慣　我學會和你說一樣的謊
你總是要我在你身旁　說幸福該是什麼模樣
你給我的天堂　其實是一片荒涼
要是我早可以和你一刀兩斷　我們就不必在愛裡勉強
可是我真的不夠勇敢　總為你忐忑為你心軟
畢竟相愛一場　不要誰心裡帶著傷

我可以永遠笑著扮演你的配角　在你的背後自己煎熬
如果你不想要　想退出要趁早　我沒有非要一起到老
我可以不問感覺繼續為愛討好　冷眼的看著你的驕傲
若有情太難了　想別離要趁早　就算迷戀你的擁抱　忘了就好

愛已至此　怎樣的說法　都能成為理由
我在這樣的愛情裡看見的　是男人的軟弱

sigh

some things never change...

luka

My name is Luka
I live on the second floor
I live upstairs from you
Yes I think you've seen me before

If you hear something late at night
Some kind of trouble. some kind of fight
Just don't ask me what it was
Just don't ask me what it was
Just don't ask me what it was

I think it's because I'm clumsy
I try not to talk too loud
Maybe it's because I'm crazy
I try not to act too proud

They only hit until you cry
And after that you don't ask why
You just don't argue anymore
You just don't argue anymore
You just don't argue anymore

Yes I think I'm okay
I walked into the door again
Well, if you ask that's what I'll say
And it's not your business anyway
I guess I'd like to be alone
With nothing broken, nothing thrown

曾经的最爱

最近喜欢上分享，分享一些感悟，一些心得，一些看到的好的东西，总是会莫名其妙的感动，不知道是我开始变得越来越脆弱，还是本身女人就应该如此多愁善感。

女人总是会幻想着有一份天长地久的爱情，一份至死不渝的感情，可是真正的天长地久，至死不渝似乎总是出现在电视屏幕，就如同这个，一个很老的桥段，却还是能触动了我敏感的神经......

记得我的初恋最喜欢的歌就是“love at first sight”。一下子想起很多曾经的往事，夏日炎炎的阴凉树荫，在拥挤人群中紧握着我，电话里的回忆。。。。。。一件又一件让人难以忘怀。。。曾经你和初恋有什么难以忘怀的事情呢？

忘记在哪里看到的一句话：女人闹离婚，闹一百次都只是装装样子的；男人说离婚，讲一次就会坚持到底。窃以为这句话很有道理。

　　恋爱的时候说“我们分手吧”，结婚后说“我们离婚吧”，不过是想吓吓我们的男人，想他们哄回我们，更疼惜我们。只不过，男人往往是一种又骄傲又愚钝的动物，他们并不能看懂我们的心思。男人听到女人说分手，就以为女人是真的不想要他们了。他们或者出于无聊的自尊心不再联络你，也可能以为爱情无望，一时想不开做一些无法挽回的傻事。

　　爱情里，轻易就那分手来威胁对方真的是一个很坏的习惯。你说出了开口，反而是把这段爱情最后的决定权交给了对方。他可以选择哄回你，更可以选择离开你。反正分手是你要求的结果，他就算头也不回、拍拍屁股走掉了，也不算亏欠你。这样一来，你不但没有占到上风，更把自己陷入被动的局面。所以，如果女人不是真的想离开一个人，那就最好不要随便跟他说分手。

　　但是这句“分手”已经说出了口，无法挽回，就不要再去后悔了。如果你们真的下定决心是要一同生活的，那就保定一个信念——“拖”，不离婚也不强迫父母接受你们摆酒。

　　时间可以让人释怀很多事，包括宿怨和芥蒂。毕竟是最亲近的人，就算反对你们在一起也只是单纯的处于对自己的子女的幸福考虑。你要明白，不是你们之间的事情闹得太激烈，没有父母是希望自己的孩子离婚的。如果日子拖得久了，他们的气消了之后发现你们相处的可以很好，就会对这一段关系多一些信心，从反对变成默许，进而支持。

　　可能这个“拖”的过程很辛苦，其中也会有委屈，但是这都是你的人性造成的，又能怪谁呢？只能自己忍耐，等一些好的结局。

心情不美丽~

在这个静静的小小空间里
我需要的
是一份淡定
改变不了别人
只能改变自己
可80后的我们
真的可以这么无私么

有点急躁
进入9月
希望
会好

梦一场

我们都曾经寂寞而给对承诺 我们都因为折磨而厌倦了生活 只是这样的日子 同样的方式 还要多久 我们改变了态度而接纳了对方 我们委屈了自己成全谁的梦想 只是这样的日子 还剩下多少 已不重要 时常想起过去的温存 它让我在夜里不会冷 你说一个人的美丽是认真 两个人能在一起是缘份 早知道是这样 像梦一场 我才不会把爱都放在同一个地方 我能原谅 你的荒唐 荒唐的是我没有办法遗忘 早知道是这样 如梦一场 我又何必把泪都锁在自己的眼眶 让你去疯 让你去狂 让你在没有我的地方坚强 让我在没有你的地方疗伤

I miss missing you

Where's the pain when you walk out the door
It doesn't hurt like it used to before
Where's the love that we couldn't ignore
It doesn't kick like a pill anymore
Where's the thrill at the end of our fights
Where's the heat when we turn off the lights

I just miss all the miss that we made
When we still have the passion to hate

I miss missing you, sometimes
I miss hurting you 'til you cry
I miss watching you as you try
Try not to end up in tears
Begging to get back together
I just want you to be
To be stuck in a second forever
So don't freak out and believe.

Sometimes I'm just missing
Missing You
I miss missing you

There’s a dark cloud pulling me in
That’s the girl I was breathing in sin
There’s a blind force letting it win
And it’s longing to tear us apart
I get high when you’re making me weak
Let me down ’til I crawl on my knee’s

I just miss all the mess that we made
When we still have the passion to hate

I miss missing you sometimes
I miss hurting you ’til you cry
I miss watching you as you try
Try not to end up in tear’s
Begging to get back together
I just want you to be
To be stuck in this second forever
So don’t freak out if I leave

Sometimes I’m just missing, missing you
I miss missing you

Miss missing, miss missing, miss missing
I wanna crush in your arms at the other side of the world
Miss missing, miss missing, miss missing
I wanna die for you ’cause love is only true if it hurts

Fatal

Where are the sparks between us?
Where is the feeling we used to owned..
Why do i feel like im living in an iced castle, with dark walls not even a ray of light?
I have been searching the key, hopefully one day will fit in this locket.

Please give me a sign or tell me am i wasting my time..
should i or should i not still hope for that tiny dime..

illustrated box

怀念

关起满室不足的氧气
点着烟蒂回味你的呼吸
搜 索脑里未完的龃龉
对着空气还击着你的问题
推辞每次真实的相聚
困着自己渴望着你的消息
沾沾自喜拒绝的魅力
不着痕迹 享受着与你的距离
也许喜欢怀念你多于看见你
我也许喜欢想象你多于得到你
我关起满室不足的氧气
点着烟蒂回味你的呼吸
散 落一地断续的谜语
对着空气还击着你的问题
推辞每次真实的相聚
困着自己渴望着你的消息
翻来覆去甜蜜的话语
故作神秘 延续着你的好奇
也许喜欢怀念你多于看见你
我也许喜欢想象你不需要抱着你
啊~~~啊~~~
也许喜欢怀念你多于看见你
我 也许喜欢想象你受不了真一起啊~

To someone there...

I do believe I failed you, i know I'vd let you down, don't you know I tried so hard to love you in my way. I'm empty since then, trying to find a way to carry on. I search myself and everyone to see where we went wrong. 'cause we are born innocent it's easy, we all falter but does it matter? I thought that we could make it, i know I can't change the way you feel, i leave you with your misery, a friend who won't betray.

Make it with you

Hey have you ever tried
Really reaching out for the other side?
I may be climbing on rainbows
But baby here goes

Dreams they're for those who sleep
Life is for us to keep
And if you're wondering
What this song is leading to

I want to make it with you
I really think
That we could make it boy

No, you don't know me well
In every little thing only time will tell
If you believe the things that I do
And we'll see it through

Life can be short or long
Love can be right or wrong
And if I chose the one
I'd like to help me through

I'd like to make it with you
I really think
That we could make it boy

Baby you know that dreams
They're for those who sleep
Life it's for us to keep
And if I chose the one
I'd like to help me through

I'd like to make it with you
I really think
That we could make it

我忘了

我不怪你借用我的感情
如果你曾用过心
我学会不在乎背叛的很安静
算了吧就让你嬴

我忘了你犯了错道歉的话别说
我忘了你犯了错所以我不难过

宁愿保持沉默心才不会被撕破
拜托回忆能放过我
我知道是结局所以不犹豫
悲剧不该走下去
太勉强的拥抱没有理由继续
我选择当首插曲
不恨你不爱我
至少我们快乐过
我爱你我恨我
只靠想念赶不走寂寞


请放过我
当爱不能是拥有我不敢挽留
你会快乐就足够

我记得你深爱过所以我不难过
宁愿保持沉默心才不会再被撕破
拜托回忆能放过我

Hush Hush

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strenght
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything that you can do.
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me , listen to me because,

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word

There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

No more words
No more lies
No more crying
No more pain
No more hurt
No more tryin'
Because

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word

There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
I've already spoken
Our love is broken

有些人，共患难或富，都很难。

You were always hard to hold
So letting go ain't easy
I'm hanging on but growing cold
While my mind is leaving

Talk, talk is cheap
Give me a word you can keep

Cause you're halfway gone and I'm on way
And I'm feeling, feelin feelin this way
Cause I'm halfway in but don't take too long
Cause I'm halfway gone, I'm halfway gone

You got one foot out the door
And choking on the other
Always think there's something more
It's just around the corner

Talk, talk is cheap
Give me a word you can keep

Cause I'm halfway gone and I'm on way
And I'm feeling, feelin, feelin this way
Cause you're halfway in but don't take too long
Cause I'm halfway gone, I'm halfway gone

If you want me out, then I'm on my way
And I'm feeling, feelin, feelin this way
Cause you're halfway in, but don't take too long
Cause I'm halfway gone, Im halfway gone
Im halfway gone, Im halfway gone

病的时后，多谢你的微顾多谢你的微顾多。多。

世界足球开战啦，我还未看开幕呢。。OUT左啦我。想当年去饮茶看足球，懂D唔懂D甘，真搞笑。好想过下往日隐。你问我开心多定系唔开心的多，我想。。我都答唔到你呢个问题。。

belle：今天，天灰灰的，一点也不晴朗，就像我的内心。

《旋木》王菲

liking this very much lately..

just like maypril told me.. it's so me..

拥有华丽的外表和绚烂的灯光
我是匹旋转木马身在这天堂
只为了满足孩子的梦想
爬到我背上就带你去 翱翔
我忘了只能原地奔跑的那忧伤
我也忘了自己是永远被锁上
不管我能够陪你有多长
至少能让你幻想与我飞翔
奔驰的木 马让你忘了伤
在这一个供应欢笑的天堂
看着他们的羡慕眼光
不需放我在心上
旋转的木马没有翅膀
但却能够带着你到处飞 翔
音乐停下来你将离场
我也只能这样

极讨厌冷战

男人是否只看外表，而忘了内在？我也只不过是一个平凡到再也不可平凡的人而已，你也不是吗？我知道你的苦心，但，何必弹到如此。我也是个女的，也不必去到那么尽吧？有时开个玩笑还可以。但也不表示我不在乎，那么的随便吧？叹。。 我也是个人，也可以有缺点吧？

是否有人可帮帮我。。。买野？

我开始营业了。希望妈咪保佑，赚多D吧。。

TQ

Been so out of mind what to cook for dinner lately, lucky to have chef fiek's guidance .

Thanks to everyone's condolences. I felt the warmth from everyone's heart. xoxo

九份

小丸子麦芽糖！加里配白饭，赞！hohoho


















九份老街，一点都不老！


香气喷喷的尤鱼！

阳明山的美

回看在台湾时的旅程，虽然在阳明山逗留了两天，但它深深地吸引了我。

第一次泡温泉。第一次看见一座山的海芋。感受当地的风情，还遇上了可爱的好人老伯伯。不知他现在如何？

来壶花茶和小蛋糕做下午茶吧。

Just the way you are - Milky

The way you walk
The way you understand me
The way you move
The way you just whisper me
The way you touch
The way you used to kiss me
I want you just just the way you are

your still the same
don't ever change
I want you just the way you are everyday now
Say you'll stay , don't go away
I love you just the way you are the way you are

Dududu, Dudududu Dududu,
Dududududu And it goes

The way you talk
The way you movin closer
The way you kiss
The way you dip inside me
cause everytime
Everytime I think about you
I want you just just the way you are

5月的第一个星期

belle : 今日是妈妈的五七，过了一个月，我渐渐感觉到她 的不存在，渐渐的觉悟，妈咪真的已经离开了。由她开始患了病时，我便在她的身边，我以为和相信她会康复，那怕她再幸苦，我也支持叫她不放弃，但最终也是这 结局。我很想她康复后再带她吃她喜欢吃的，喝她喜欢喝的，但不可太甜，她有糖尿病，要慢慢吃，要不会很难消化。。我想念我每一次这样的捞叨她。这画面不会 再出现了。我还留着她的信息，那几个最后最后的信息，从今以后，我也不能再收到她的信息了，那些，你在那？不要太晚归来。。还有还有。。 妈妈，你曾答应煮蟹给我吃，这么多年了，我都这么大了。。难道你忘了吗？

妈妈，你知道我有多想念你吗？

从今以后，母亲节，就没得庆祝了。


minxy : missing mummy

想。。配合你，也不能震撼你

当我靠近脸上尽是密云
傻人都知一心对我降温
你在回避我亲近没疑问
最后悔试过故意对你倍加关心
谁知你竟会抗拒我的慰问
彷 佛尴尬地撞到路人我这样笨
只想见你但是尽量合群
明明相交不深我也上心
你良朋像我兄弟没遗憾
最重要我试过说偶尔也想单身
提 醒你不会背上太多责任
委屈到这样造作
只想博到同情与好感
我不怕死心不息爱你
表演讨好的杂技
不惜更改性格都想配合你
施展魔鬼的妩媚
加起修女庄严难以令你在意得到转机
然 后我假装潇洒对你
偷欢偷不到妒忌
花心痴心竟然同样不震撼你
哭泣表演可怜你嫌弃
大概正中你厌恶的禁忌
难道要我说我 爱到想死
威胁若拒绝我便逼死你
又怕越快被你抛弃
猜想你最近在服侍别人
仍然一声不响免太贴身
斗命长亦斗宽大只要忍
冷 待我也要免强对你笑得开心
如果不想答我永远不会问
小心到以为能够
得到报答垂怜我苦心
我不怕死心不息爱你
表演讨好 的杂技 不惜更改性格都想配合你 施展魔鬼的妩媚 加起修女庄严难以令你 在意得到转机 然后我假装潇洒对你 偷欢偷不到妒忌 花心痴心竟然同样不震撼你 哭泣表演可怜你嫌弃 大概正中你厌恶的禁 忌 难道要我说我爱到想死 威胁若拒绝我便逼死你 无非要要争一口气

belle:我不想一个人。。

只有下雪的日子......

幸福是一种幻觉，寂寞也是。。

我承认我是矛盾的。

自信,却也极度自卑。

特别是对于感情。太多太多的不稳定因素在我的身体里。

我没有办法给任何一个人安全感。我也无心伤害。

对不起对不起。

是我的自私造成的,

不要把我当女神,因为迷惑你的只是那么惊鸿一撇。

拥挤德人群中硪选择了逃避,!

我的眼睛不会笑,嘴角却上扬—到底是骗了别人还是自己。

黑夜的降临使我总能清晰看见自己有多么狼狈和孤独。

暧昧让人受尽委屈,找不到相爱的证据。

我本无心伤害。

看着镜子里面的我。怀疑哪一个才是我自己。

徘徊在真实和虚伪之间。

看着镜子里的我,怀疑到底哪一个才是真实的我!

路，被人安排好路的人.永远不会明白..自己找到出路的艰辛。
因为太早踏足社会，我竟然有迷失自我。

家人总说路是我自己选择的，好与不好也是我自己的。但他们却没有想过，这都是我退而求其次的不得以

时间过得好快,转眼又是12号了,距离我上次更新已经过了14天,时间啊,你不能过的慢一点么....

最近很懒,貌似我一直很懒....很少的文字,好吧,几乎没有的文字.哈哈哈.我自己都觉得对不住自己了.这还是博客么?

我觉得吧,我不是那种轻易跟风的人,嗯,貌似辣椒的东西我都没有买过.

貌似我只买自己适合的东西,那些散发在别人身上的光芒,我不敢去追求.

其实我觉得自己好闷的,好多新鲜的东西我都不愿意去尝试.

东西吃来吃去就是那么几样,餐厅换来换去也还是那么几个.穿衣打扮风格也是如一的休闲运动...

久而久之,我好像真的变老了

我一直觉得,年龄根本代表不了什么,活的,就是心态...

是的吧,你们也这样想的吧?阿哈哈!~

不过

不愿意接受新鲜事物,

是件很失败的事情...

我宁愿相信我永远只有24岁.嘻嘻...

我想要回到那一年
你守护我那一年
想起遥远那个夏夜
我记得你眼里是我的脸
不管这世界是那么的危险
我都悄悄地在你身边
一直到某一个幸福期限
别忘记我的脸
隐形的纪念躲在心里面
也许吧 也许不会再见
阴天或晴天
一天又一年

我想要去找那条路
你牵着我那段路
有甜有苦呀
有雨有雾
我说有你所以喜欢旅途
有时候下着雨我淋湿了脸
所以风景都变成想念
一双脚呀走过多少时间
才能走成思念
隐形的纪念躲在心里面
也许吧 也许不会再见
阴天或晴天
一天又一年

不管这世界是那么的危险
我都悄悄的在你身边
一直到某一个幸福期限
别忘记我的脸
隐形的纪念躲在心里面
也许吧 也许不会再见
阴天或晴天
一天又一年

To my guardian angel

If only words could express how much i need you.. i miss you mom

Is This Love?

Love or Infatuation

"You can tell that it's infatuation when you think that he's as sexy as Paul Newman, as athletic as Pete Rose, as selfless and dedicated as Ralph Nader, as smart as John Kenneth Galbraith and as funny as Don Rickles. You can be reasonably sure that it's love when you realize he's actually about as sexy as Don Rickles, as athletic as Ralph Nader, as smart as Pete Rose, as funny as John Kenneth Galbraith and doesn't resemble Paul Newman in any way--but you'll stick with him anyway." -Judith Viorst

(1) Do I treat the other person as a person or a thing?
If you go out with him/her because he/she is good looking (a "prize" to be with) or a way out (a ticket to the movies), that isn't love.

(2) Would you chose to spend the evening alone with him/her if there were no kissing, no touching, and no sex?
If not, it isn't love.

(3) Are the two of you at ease and as happy alone as you are with friends?
If you need other friends around to have a good time, it isn't love.

(4) Do you get along?
If you fight and make up a lot, get hurt and jealous, tease and criticize one another, better be careful, it may not be love.

(5) Are you still interested in dating or secretly "messing around" with others?
If so, you aren't in love.

(6) Can you be totally honest and open?
If either or both of you are selfish, insincere, feel confined, or unable to express feelings, be cautious.

(7) Are you realistic?
You should be able to admit possible future problems. If others (besides a parent) offend you by saying they are surprised you are still together, that you two seem so different, that they have doubts about your choice, better take a good look at this relationship.

(8) Is either of you much more of a taker than a giver?
If so, no matter how well you like that situation now, it may not last.

(9) Do you think of the partner as being a part of your whole life?
If so, and these dreams seem good, that is an indication of love.


Is it love or infatuation or loneliness or friendship?

继续。。等待。。

噢，宝要离开我两个星期了。。

怎么办？ 希望天天快乐，快D过就好啦。

继续。。等。。

宝，

新年快乐，情人节快乐。。。

叹。。

恭喜恭喜!自己。。

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